Welcome! I’m so glad you have joined the community. I spent many years denying that this lifestyle is a hard gig. I knew it in my head but didn’t want to let anyone else know it. It’s getting harder and harder to fake it these days. I know what you mean when you say nothing feels special anymore. We have our first big family wedding coming up in a few weeks; my oldest niece is getting married. Everyone is so excited, and it’s going to be a big hairy deal. But I can hardly get excited. All I can think about is how difficult it is going to be taking care of my husband during the event. I just want to enjoy myself, feed only myself, dance, and close the reception down like all my other family members will do. Instead, I will sit quietly next to my husband and care for him and leave when he is tired of it all. Hardly a rip roaring time for such an exciting event.
I hope you will continue to post but you have a point. I should probably learn to censor myself a little more.
"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...it's learning to dance in the rain."