I have had some good news that my family church is going to purchase a van for the BVR to adapt for me to have to drive! I can't imagine being able to go places that I want to go when I want to go there. It is something that I had taken for granted, and now am so exciting even thinking about. It is scary also, learning to drive without using my feet and having my independence back opens up a whole different set of issues. All of the people that I haven't seen since before my accident I will probably run into. How do I act and what do I say? I have never been good at taking compliments or receiving help, the idea of people giving me something like that makes me feel good. It also makes me almost ashamed that I need the help. I know I am lucky to have someone wanting and willing to do this for myself and my family, but how do I get past the shameful feeling I have to accept it in the way it is intended? Then of course there is insurance, is there a recommended place for insurance for hand control drivers? I guess I am sort of rambling on, but this is what has been on my mind since I have found out about the upcoming gift. I eventually would like to be able to drive a car, but I will be thrilled with driving anything right now. I have been in a sort of isolation from the real world since I have only been going to rehab and counseling since my accident a year ago. So even the thought of getting out and about is really a scary thing. How do you get past the fears so you can go on and live again?
