I just finished reading this book called 90 Minutes in Heaven by Don Piper. It is the story of one pastor’s horrible auto accident where he was declared dead at the scene but came back to life after a fellow pastor stopped on the road, crawled into his mangled vehicle and essentially prayed him back to life. During the time he was dead he spent 90 minutes in heaven.
There is more to the story, but the gist is he feels he survived and recovered due to answered prayers; the prayers of all those that knew him. His faith and the faith of his friends saved him. It is meant to be a feel-good, hopeful story, and I guess it is for him. I just didn’t feel all that good with the premise.
This happened another time a few years ago when this local man was paralyzed in a bike accident. A website was set up to send this guy messages of hope and encouragement. A local lady, who claimed to be a motivational speaker on TBI and SCI, related on this site how she had made a truly remarkable full recovery due to her faith, her willpower and her dedication to her recovery. Wow I thought, if that is all it takes there would be a lot less people in wheelchairs. I guess it stands to reason that only the lazy would be left in chairs. I know a lot of faithful people with incredible willpower and dedication that are still in a chair and have made little functional recovery after their injury. Using these above theories on recovery, what are they left to think about themselves?
I had this overwhelming urge to call out this lady on her statement and I did. I sent her an e-mail (in fact it turned into several exchanges) and asked her what are people to think about themselves if they don’t make this remarkable recovery. I thought her statements somehow left me with the feeling that if you are still in the chair them it is because your faith wasn’t strong enough, your will to recover wasn’t great enough, and your dedication to your recovery must have been lacking. This is the same feeling I had reading the book. Why are some people prayed out of these terrible situations and others are not? I know thousands of very faithful and devout people prayed for my husband, but I guess it would appear that those prayers went unanswered. Maybe we just aren’t worthy enough. Although our family is quite religious and spiritual, this concept is very difficult for me. Why some and not others?
When my husband was first injured I read the book, When Bad Things Happen to Good People by Harold Kushner. I don’t remember much of the book now only that it seemed to make sense to me. I guess I liked it so well I lent it to someone. Drat…maybe I need to re-read it now to counteract this feeling I am having after just finishing this other book.
I guess here is my prayer for today…Dear God, Please stop me from e-mailing this guy and asking him if he is more worthy in Your eyes than my husband…and why?
I guess I will see how God answers this prayer of mine. So now we can add motivational speakers and pastor-authors to my list of current annoyances which already includes pizza guys, a small population of nutty nurses, and weirdos on the street that make idiot comments.
"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...it's learning to dance in the rain."