Where's my Mojo
October is Disability awareness month. I'm starting early. Austin Powers wasn't the only one looking for his Mojo. I been looking for my Mojo for several years now. What makes it harder to get my Mojo back is SCI.
Along with my condition all the options are either unsafe or a risk.
When I was paralyzed, I was young and I bet weather young or adult,
intimacy is a concern. September 23, 2009 I went to an Erectile
Dysfunction Seminar . When I was first paralyzed my penis would stay
hard for as long as my partner kept it stimulated. For several years
that stimulation effect hasn't continued to keep me erect. I didn't ever consider discussing it with my urologist in the beginning, so instead I just made excuses and and avoided situations that may lead to intimacy. At my 40th birthday party I tried a penal stimulation pellet that had no effect. The box stayed in my refrigerator 2 years and I recently tried an expired pellet, no effect again. I had somewhat successful moments
but not like when I was 24. Now I'm 42 and intimacy is as desiring as
it was when I was 24, I rarely resort to drugs or medical procedures every since I was used as a lab rat in 1987 to have an unnecessary Sphincterotomy. This why I'm afraid of new medicine.
SCI effects everyone differently, one quad is different from the next. What may not effect one quad may effect me to the hospital. Infections, poor healing and dysreflexia is something I'm always faced with. I'm really not trying to get depressed but I'm sure most men are effected mentally if their Mojo
is going away. Medication is a no-no with my heart rate, needles is a
mood breaker besides I can't inject myself and the Penal Implant may
not heal right.I may get a bad infection and put me into dysreflexia .
Although the Urologist made it sound like the implant may work, there
are still risk and complications. Very mind effecting. So what have I
learned. Definitely my journey with SCI isn't over, there's things I have to face. There is others living with SCI who couldn't achieve an erection
since there injury. I have to look at the good that I have, for 10
years I had no problem with stimulation, I'm older now, circulation and
other issues are going to change. Is it worth putting my body under
stress and the knife for a gamble, I don't think so, before I put my mind state into a situation of solitude, I need to know if I should let my ego or God guide me.
I can still do a lot of other things. Intimacy isn't just penetration.
If I learned how to feel my lover with Love, I can figure this ED thing
out without cutting my body open. So just like at the end of the movie
Austin realized he had hisMojo all along, well then so do I. My Mojo is my family, my friends and my purpose. Score 10 points to Professir X, don't let anything stop us now.
