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Hi CYA!  <smile>   ((hugs!))

I have answers to prayer!
My younger daughter (18)  has been very ill (not able to leave the house) for 2 months and she is finally, as a result of God leading me to the right resources, able to be active once again!!  She didn't miss her graduation! PTL!!!   It goes to show, that even when doctors, the E.R., and hospital could not help, God can make a way!!! PTL!!!

However, this is hard for Carla to see, as she has been ill 9 years, missed high school, homebound yet, and can't go on with her dreams! She sees her sister with all the victory!   Lord, speed Carla's recovery up, please, for her sake and mine ( I need to get a job--I'm in desperate shape!)  I'm grateful that the most recently added herb is making her menstrual time tolerable after years of childbirth-like pain!  PTL!!! 

Pray for my employment need. 

Pray my ex will cooperate to get the house sold and I find a place to move..

Thanks for praying!

My youngest daughter's grad party went GREAT on Saturday! PTL!!  I did not know how I could possibly do this, but God had a way!  PTL!!
Unfortunately, her health sunk again, and the doctor prescribed another medication for the next 30 days.  Please pray this med will work, as she needs to be able to work and go to college this fall!! 

My mother was here, and we had some conversations in which I shared how the Holy Spirit has been working in my life over the last few years. Mom was moved to joyful tears by this.  We also discussed the "remarriage" issue. My parents have been extremely conservative opposing all remarriage and even left a church over this matter.. They are struggling with the fact that I have been dating this man for 2 years. Dad chose not to attend the grad party because he's so hurt about it and believes if I remarry we'll go to hell! Mom came to help with the party, and she woke the other night, restless and  praying "God, if we are wrong on this remarriage issue, show us. If Renae is wrong, show her!" Dad had said a few weeks ago that I never should have married my first husband and he wished my current guy had been my first husband. 
Please keep praying, for the Lord's Will in all of this! Thanks!

Sara could not tolerate the new medication. Her stomach hurts alot.  Needs prayer.

Pray for the next testing for Carla this week,  that God will reveal the next steps and keep healing her of this terrible 9-year syndrome. 

Now that M.A. put Carla on her own adult case and Sara turned 18,  they will finally let me make an income. Hurray!   But Medica hasn't restarted yet -- that could take 3 months before they'll pay me a couple hours daily to be her PCA so I'm trying to get started with a legitimate at-home flex-schedule job that won't interfere with Carla's constantly changing schedule/needs. Please pray this all works out! Thanks.

I am still looking for a place to move to that will fit Carla's health needs.  I know that God has my next address, so let Him lead me!!

Legal Assistance should call this week. Pray that they will help my post-divorce dilemmas with ex.

thanks!
~Renae

Renae,

If there is one person in this world that will make it...it is you!  You have placed yourself under God's mighty hand, you have cast all your cares on Him, when the time is right...GOD HIMSELF will lift you up!

I will be praying for you sister...His Spirit will give you peace! 

Praise God!!!... and Thank you soooo much, my dear brother TD&H,  for taking the time to read this thread of my struggles, and thank you for your prayers and posting such  precious words of encouragement!!  <BIG SMILE>   Wow! ... to God be the GLORY!!! 

He is doing great things in us, and what HE has started, He will surely complete!!!  AMEN!!!  In that is the peace that passes all understanding!!  

Hearing that "still small voice" and noticing that Holy Spirit prompt  makes all the difference in the world!!   He is taking us forward ---and the BEST is yet to come!!! 

Keep the faith!! 
Love and prayers,
your Sis, Renae
 

 

I'm praising God for several things that just happened!  

First, I was notified of a new discount being applied to my car insurance so that I did not have to pay it yesterday and they will rebill me later!!!  Thank God for this discount and delay!

 Second, I got a letter that Medica is starting for Carla as of 8-1 instead of 2 months later, so hopefully the HealthCare company who employed me as her PCA up to last February will restart me SOON. 

Third, I had a good phone talk with ex about issues I need resolved.  He sounds willing to cooperate! 

4th ---- Carla's test shows very positive signs on her road to recovery.
PTL!!!!!!!    A year ago she had become so hyper-sensitive that she could not tolerate any meds and supplements, but on this protocal that God led me to, she's been moving right along month after month, taking one new supplement after another and dropping one supplement after another as they finished their job, etc. !!   However, these are tough, complex organisms to kill and she is weaker than the last time tested, meaning that treatment is exhausting ...so God, thank you for all the progress so far but please apply  more of YOUR strength to Carla to get through this!!!  In a Spirit of Faith, I claim VICTORY right now in Jesus' name and Carla will be an OVERCOMER of  all these health issues that years of doctoring never cured!!! You are the Great Physician and You led me to Godly people who know the way through, but ONLY YOU can heal!!  We're counting on  YOU to complete the good work of healing Carla!  Thank you, Lord!  In Christ's name, Amen!! 

O.k., I'm taking Sara back to the doctor now....  She is desperate for help...

Thank you all for praying!  It is working!  God bless you!
Love,
Renae

I am very happy for you. I hope all goes well with the Medica people and I hope you can get both Carla and Sara back to good health and soon. Please pray for me as I am leaving tonigh to go to Texas to look for jobs and housing. I hope I find both and I hope Shelly still wants to move back with me but if not I will go anyway and let God work the other out. God bless and good luck Renae

Hi brother Baron!! I am so VERY grateful that you included my girls and I on the prayer thread and for your encouraging message here too!  I saw on another post where you were going out of town, and I prayed for this trip! 

I was getting really stressed again until God led me to go outside last night and just sat in the quietness, near the pond, and just looked up at the stars and talked prayerfully repented of things, and listened for Him.  I prayed for you Baron and your family and called out on behalf of others too. ,A great peace came over me in knowing that the same God who hung the stars, is the same One who is placing us in the positions we need to be in too. What we are going through is bringing us into this maturity & purity necessary before HE comes for His Bride. We are being restored from years of tough trials. Ever since I read your story, I have believed that you and Shelly are "one" in God's eyes so your marriage will be healed and  restored "in His perfect time"..  All the counterfeits fall, but the couples who are truly "one" in the Lord, are pictures God wants the World to see, so more people will turn to Christ the Lover of their souls! 

God bless you!
In His Love,
~Renae

Renae I am struggling right now with just letting go and trusting God. I don't know if Shelly will ever come back but in the end that really doesn't matter cause I have to live for God and nothing else. It is important to have faith in God and that His plan for me is great than anything I could think of. I am still scared of being alone but I know I will some how make it . I hope Sara and Carla are doing better and I hope God is providing for you and the girls needs. God bless

You are in my prayers....God bless.

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Miss. D (formally DKL in old forum)

To blessed to be stressed, and to annointed to be disappointed.

Miss D, thank you!  I don't know how I'm going to make it. No matter how I've tried  to help my health since the divorce in 2003, all the money spent, the menopause combined with years of stress has seemed to destroy me. Today I have only $150 in my back account left at the end of this month, all my savings spent on 5 years helping Carla and basic living expenses, I don't know if ex will pay anymore support to the girls and me, and my health and the girls health won't allow me to get a job still!!!. Memory, concentration, energy, and motivation are depleted. Even my doctor told me at the end of May, with my thyroid as it is, don't even think about trying to be trained into a new job! You can't do it!  The nurse called yesterday because I was bleeding last week for some unknown reasons, and wants to see me on Aug. 8th.  Will I even have gas left to get there?

I was doing an at-home treatment with Carla this morning, and she began to spill out her heart, of how terrible she feels physically inspite of all we've spent. Emotionally, due to years of hormone imbalance, etc. she can't figure out how to feel anymore. She too.  lost all of her friends due to this illness too. How will she ever get her life back on a normal track after 9 years of this?  Lost our family to divorce, and is bearing the daughter's pain that she too might never be able to accept that a man will love her forever becauase her dad abandoned me. She sees how I devoted all my energies for years to his success and his family's financial future, only to be left in poverty.Why had I not kept my foot in my own career just in case I'd end up in this boat?  Was it really worth it? Why did I want a husband and family anyway?  

Tell me how to look in her eyes and make sense of this for her?

I'm planning to go to the Lymes Disease Support group tonight. Never been to it before. There's a guy there who is Carla's age, and his mother had no more time to help him and he is desperate. I hope he will be there tonight. Maybe he and Carla can relate if he has a computer to write to her, as she can't get out of the house and she can't handle the stimulation of having company in the house or talking on a phone.. Maybe they can all become a presence in Carla's life somehow, to let her know they understand and care. The brain & neurological disturbance in this late stage Lymes is really scaring Carla, as well as the personality disturbance that occurs when you become chronically ill in puberty and you're now 21..  Please pray!!! .

Baron, absolutely, you have to let go and trust God at this stage. Not easy, but the Holy Spirit will guide and give strength to bear up and be sustained until He brings you into the next season of your life and purpose.

We all have to get to the point where our relationship with God is #1 and we want Him getting the glory and His great purposes to unfold more than we want our immediate gratification. I truly think, when we get involved with what concerns Him, He gets involved in what concerns us.

I believe the situation you are in is just like God is putting you near His heart and saying, Baron, I understand you because I long for fellowship-intimacy with my Bride too. I would like to go out and grab her and make her love me more than anything else, but I have to let go and let her mature so that she can love Me of her own free will. These are believers, now we're talking about! Born-again people who should love HIM more than anything because He's done so much for them and loves them so perfectly, but they've taken it all for granted that He loves them and are too caught up in the cares of this life. You know the loss God feels, Baron, because you have longed for fellowship with your bride too. What a privilege that God would let you see the world from HIS perspective.

My friend is a widower, and he says too many husbands take their wives for granted and don't realize until she's gone how much they needed her. You can enourage the Christian brothers to love their wives as Christ loves the Church. All the insignificant things that spouses get disgruntled about -- so what! What matters is you have each other to love and to cherish and to be a symbol of Christ's love for the Church!! You can urge believers to draw near to the Father and fulfill His purpose too.

You see, it is not just about us having our marriages intact, Baron, but it is getting the Heart and  Mind of the Lord in us, to see the bigger picture of what He wants to accomplish. When you see that, you are near to His heart, and He will fulfill your heart as a man and husband too. Do you think this is right?

Well, Baron, I have to answer my own last question. I really can't speak for God. He has a bigger picture than what I see too. The important thing is that we learn how to do our part of Proverbs 3:5-6:  "trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not unto your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him....."