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Blessed Be Your Name In the land that is plentiful Where Your streams of abundance flow Blessed be Your name Blessed Be Your name When I'm found in the desert place Though I walk through the wilderness Blessed Be Your name Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise When the darkness closes in, Lord Still I will say Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your name Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your glorious name Blessed be Your name When the sun's shining down on me When the world's 'all as it should be' Blessed be Your name Blessed be Your name On the road marked with suffering Though there's pain in the offering Blessed be Your name Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise When the darkness closes in, Lord Still I will say Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your name Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your glorious name Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your name Blessed be the name of the Lord Blessed be Your glorious name You give and take away You give and take away My heart will choose to say Lord, blessed be Your name
FAITHEY:I continue to pray fervantly for him. His only hope is in Christ and Christ alone.
Amen Faithy! Many will say they trust in Christ alot...but, few trust in Christ alone! I have been away for awhile and am saddened to hear that your husband is still wayward...my prayers go out to you...
Faithey- keeping you and your lovely boys in my prayers. Hope your husband recovers completely and finally comes home, where he belongs. You are such and inspiration to many of us.
Hugs,
L&P
Hello Tru2Him. It has been a while. I hope your doing well.
How timely your response to me. My heart is heavy. My husband came to visit with the children, after not seeing him for approximately three weeks. It was there first day of school. I left work early yesterday to pick up my boys and he was waiting for me in the parking lot. We went together to pick up the boys. He said that whatever happens between us, to keep it between us. I advised that I do and that his family has been saying quite a few things. I asked that he keep it between us as well. Too many people involved. I said this needed to be with God at the head and us.
Anyways we went home. He did some homework with the boys. Spent time with them. We spoke for a while. Then as he was leaving he said is was in for a big fight at the OW house. I did not say anything. I put my boys to bed and he came back. I let him and asked why he here and he said he needed a place to sleep. I asked why? I asked what he wanted. I told him that I could not do this any longer. I told him that if wants to work on the marriage, its all or nothing. He said he did not know if we would work. He said he did not know if he could risk relationship with OW and then not have it work with us. I told him I loved him and was secure in the knowledge that by surrendering ourselves and marriage to God, God would make the way for us. I told him it would not be easy, that it would take a lot of work and time. But that it was more than worth it.
I told him he could not stay. I told him I was not kicking him out, that I was not angry, but that it needed be done completely. He could no longer live in two worlds. He said he understood. He left. A short time thereafter he came back again. He said he was really hungry and had no where to go. I gave him some food and talked with him again. He said that I make angry. I asked what exactly made him angry. He could not answer. I told him you attack the problem not the person. He said I was stagnate. I wasn't going anywhere. That he has accomplished some much since being away from me. I asked what had he accomplished. He mentioned getting one of his dreamboat. I said, okay, you have a boat to use but its not your boat. It belongs to OW and OW pays for it, you don't. He mentioned school. I said you have not gone back to school. He said OW helps him apply. I said great, but still you have not gone back to school. I said what else. He had nothing to say. He said well what do you own that cost $56,000.00 (the boat). I said my home. But it means nothing. Here today, could be gone tomorrow.
According to his sister, I need to make things easier for him. She says she understands that religion says you do not divorce. But that due to his disorder the lesser of two evils is for him to stay OW house so that he can get stable and then make a decision. He says everytime he comes home he cannot handle it. It tortures him. She said that between her father telling you never abandon you family and his religious beliefs, and his disorder being completely out of control he just cannot handle it. That is unable to make any decisions. She said that for the time being I should not allow him into the house until he gets under control and make a decision. She said she is affraid for his life. That OW said he could not return, and his sister begged her to take him back because he could not be alone. He said he would go to a motel but no one has heard from him. He may very well be at OW house. His sister hase not called there yet.
His sister asked if I would rather have him loose his life or be obedient to God. I said that is not a fair question. Obviously I do not want him to loose his life, but the only life he can have is going to be found in God. She said every time he comes to the house he gets ill and does not do well. Its a pattern. She says let him stay at OW house and get well and then when he is well enough to do so he can make amenze (sp) with God. Then he can either chose to be obedient to God and stay with me, even though he is in love with OW, or he can chose to stay with OW. But only after he is well.
My husband, I and our children truly need yours prayers. This is a war like I have never experience. I keep praying for wisdon and God's will be done. I do not want to disappoint or grieve God's heart. I keep asking that God have his way me inspite of me. I do not want to get in the way or cause my husband to stumble mentally, spiritually, physically. I do not want to thwart God's plans in any way shape or form.
Please pray that God direct out steps. That he remover OW from our life. My husband has deteriorated to this state due to the lifestyle he has lived for the past two and half years years.
Yes, this is tearing my heart out. In the midst of my sadness, heartbreak, heartache, trials, worries, etc. there is a joy in my soul that God so wonderfully and mercifully placed within. I never understood how someone could have sadness and joy at the same time. I understand now.
As for my SIL, I see right through it. And yes it is manipulation. I feel sadness for her, for she believes what she is saying. I do not take her counsel whatsoever. I pray for her. I have made it abundantly clear that I will not discuss my husband, our marriage or seek any counsel. I have known her for over 21 years now. I told her that she could call to ask about the children or even how I am doing and thats it. She has children (my nieces) whom I adore. I have come along side of her due to her own marriage problems and have prayed.
I did not let him spend the night. That was difficult for me. But I litterally prayed my way through it. When he came back a second time, stating that he was hungry, I fed him, and sent him on his way. Again, very difficult for me.
His family always say they will do anything for him (particullary his sister). I have not doubt that they love him. But they all have their own family and responsibilty to them. I told his sister if she would sell her house, uproot her family (husband/children) move down to our state, take her brother in, and provide for him financially and pay for health insurance. You see its something nice to say, but when it comes to doing so, its a different story.
As his wife (and bare with me here) I would do these things for he is my husband. If your spouse is ill you do all you can to get them help, care for them, see it through. But that is my immediate family. My first ministry is to my family.
Its in God's hands. Where it should be.
Thank you Tru2Him. My SIL said that the OW is the lesser of two evils for the time being. What a sad statement. The adultress will take you to the grave. This is where my husband has been heading for 2 1/2 years now.
Thank you so very much for your prayers. They mean so very much for me. My husband needs to surrender to Christ completely and I pray that this will come to be.
Thank you Cast-n-Blast. It was not easy to ask him to leave. I do love my husband, I realize some wonder how can I. But I do. I don't see our marriage as a contract, I see it as a covenant. I don't deserve God's love, but He loves me in spite of who I am. I also know that He is a just God. A God who diciplines.
I am in complete agreement with you with regard to his sister's advise to give him a pass.
Thank you for your prayers. They are very much needed.
Said he wants the kids to visit his house. I told him he needed to get his own place then. He said he could not afford it. He said we will have to talk about it later.
Said that he will tell his therapist what happened and she will probably recommend he not see the children for another two weeks or so. But that he will call them everyday. He said there was no point in taking medication and seeking therapy if he was going to continue doing drestructive things (meaning us). Unless he gets healthy and cannot be good for anyone else and if that is selfish so be it.
I recall him telling the kids while he was at the house that it would be two weeks til he sees them again. Even his sister (yesterday) mentioned that she thought it was too soon for him to see the kids. He wasn't ready. That she tried to tell him so. It would seem his therapist recommended it.
His beloved sister/family/OW/etc are driving into his head that I'm the enemy (devil) and our home is a death trap. In other words he will self destruct if he stays with me and his family. We are not good for him (except the kids of course, and in limited capacity I would say). I know they are telling him, because they seem to all use the same words. So many things are coming at me all at once. Enemies seeking to destroy me, my marriage, my children, my family. I feel attacked at all sides. But God causes me to stand. He shields my children and I. He provides for my children and I. He is my fortress, my redeemer, my savior.
For every evil work thrown my way, God has made a way for me.
I sit back and think, God be glorified in all this. I pray and thank God knowing that He is handling this situation. And according to His will, His time, truth will be revealed.
For all that have followed my testimony thus far, I pray that you see God, His works in me and through me. It is not I, it is all God. I stand today by His saving grace. To Him be all the glory.
