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I love my wife and would never cheat on her. We have a beautiful daughter that is 8 months old. We both beleive in God and have start going to church and praying so that we can teach our daughter. Our sex life is pretty average I can say. I have a problem with masturbation though. When my wife is at work and im off, I'll grab the computer and look at porn and jerk off, sometimes doing it twice or more before she gets home. I even have the problem at work too. At work im not allow to look at porn but i still look at sites like maxim and stuff, even videos that show girls in skimmy clothes. I have a tv here and when i work the night shift sometimes i watch the ads for girls gone wild. while watching this or surfing the net i'll jerk off. My shift is 12 hours long and I sit at a desk so sometimes I do it twice or more. especially if its the weekend or nights where there is no one that can see me do it. I work where i cannot live my work area during my shift cause it is a watch and i have to anwser a phone. bascially im in the military on watch for 12 hours either at night or day cause it flip flops.  I feel very bad after the fact when I do it. I love my family and i don't want this to effect me whats so ever. How can i stop masturbating and look at stuff while at work or on the tv? I can control myself at home and I have gotten better with it but not 100%. What do I do? I need help. Im addict to masturbations. I need advice on how to control myself and even at work. Im afraid that I will get caught and get in trouble. Like I've said the wife and I both believe in God and we have started goign to Church. I'm trying to get my life together in certain areas and live a Life in God eyes and ways. Not just for me but for my wife and daughter. please help..........

I've been clean for 12 years. Christ gets all of the credit. I don't have any formal counselor training. I do know there are websites and books out there for addicts, though I have never read them. Maybe someone else can recommend something.

You state that you "love your wife and would never cheat on her". This is what I thought and was deceived as well with my wife.

What I did not realize was that when I was doing porn, I WAS cheating on my wife. It hurt her badly. One of her counselors told her that she had a biblical reason to divorce me. I'm not saying her counselor was completely correct, however, the sin is more serious then you may imagine.

It effects your wife's sense of security and security is one of the greatests needs for a woman.

Now picture your wife being "in love" with someone else while living with you. You have her physically, but her heart is with someone else. The pain you would feel is about the same pain you are putting your wife through.

You may not realize it, but you are in danger of losing your wife.

Confessing your sin to men you can trust also helps. Tell someone that you have a problem. Do you have a men's group at church that you can become apart of?
I cut my cable tv. Placing the computer in the living room, etc.

It is excellent that you realize that you have a problem and are brave enough to post it. Keep seeking. Don't think it will go away by itself.

One of the primary signs of sex addiction is the inability to stop despite recognizing the problems and trying to quit.  The thing that sticks out to me about your description is that you do it at work, and quitting at work should be a larger concern than quitting at home.

Going to church and seeking to do things God's way is a great start, but sex addiction is a specific condition that needs a targeted treatment by someone who is used to dealing with it.  I urge you to find a therapist or treatment program that specializes in sex addiction, and look into a sex-related 12-step program like Sex Addicts Anonymous or Sexaholics Anonymous.

There is a website: www.settingcaptivesfree.com

They really helped me by showing HOW to apply God's Word specifically to this, forming a plan, a battle plan for the thoughts, the heart, and the material possessions at home and at work that present hard obstacles like the ones you're dealing with.  It's a 60-day program, complete witha mentor that will help hold you accountable without coddling you as a child, nor smashing you into the ground in defeat.  I highly recommend them.