I'm made of flesh and blood. While I stand on the Word of God for deliverance, I also hurt and I'm in pain.
It was made abundantly clear to me, by my SIL, that the family does have hatred towards me that stems from such deep anger towards me. That they are not the only one, his friends, his ex-wfe, co-workers. They feel that I am no good for my husband and it is my fault that he is where he is today in such crisis. That I trigger the crisis in him. Because it couldn't possibly be God convicting him. We must put religion aside.
That in the two years he has been with this OW, he has developed and fostered a relationship with my step-son, his father and stepmother. That this OW controls him much better in all areas, whether it be his financing, his extra curriculum activities (questionable area), his drinking, etc. That while he is with me, that he is completely out of control.
I explained to her that is not the truth, and fact the opposite is true. I explained to her that there are many people that have sat in jail with overwhelming evidence pointing to their coviction that have been later released once the truth was revealed (I used that as an example). I told her that he has gone down in the time that he has been away from me due to the lifestyle he has chosen to live (sin). That his very best friend (our friend) who is the one that felt lead by God to speak to him, for fear his life is in danger due to his lifestyle. My brother echos the same sentiment. But wait, these are Christian people, and they just want to bring to Word of God. What do they know. My huband just wants to be happy and God is not a part of that. He needs to do what makes him happy and this OW is it.
He depleted our retirement fund ($46,000.00) in less than two years, but this OW is helping him control it. His car was repossessed (under my name) and a new truck and boat was purchased, because that is the way to make wise fiancial decisions, while this OW helps him to control it. His drinking is out of hand, but the OW is helping to control it. Is invovled in shady dealings, owes money to shady people, but the OW says he does not leave her sight. Yet I was asked for money because a debt needed to be paid and these people don't play around. His job is in jeopardy, but the OW is helping him to maintain the job all long. His student loans are in default, but the OW is helping him, because instead of paying for the loans, it was wiser to purchase a boat and make payments on that. He goes days and days without sleeping, all while he is at OW house. The sleeps during the days for days on, all while at the OW house. Does not eat properly, and so much more.
His visits with the children were at home for these reasons and more. He too wanted to visit them at the home and not take them to OW. OW had been putting pressure on him to do so and he resisted.
But I'm the one he needs to stay from. He asked that they keep me in the dark as to his treatment. That he did not want me there. That because he knows I feel that he not only needs to be there but that his only hope is in Jesus.
I told my husband that he cannot live in two worlds. He has a choice as do I. I chose not live in this manner. This was Wed. night when the OW showed up to my home and I advised her that she was not welcomed and needed to leave. He asked that I go inside the house since we were outside. I said no. This is my home and I will not be told what to do. She needs to go. He then starts yelling at her to get in the car and leave. I went inside the house and the OW was sitting in her car. She later drove down the street, I got in my car and drove up to her and spoke to her. I told her that I wanted to make it abundantly clear that she is not welcomed in my home. And the next time I would call the police. I told her she would be the death of him, just as the bible states. I told her the truth to many things that she did not not know or chose to ignore. I told she could verify it with my SIL. My husband came over and asked that I go home and I told him that what he has done is a completely disrespectful to me. He said he would never disrespect me, that he know she was in our home but that was due to his crisis and he admired what I did and respected me so much. He told me to please just go back to the house that I have always been a lady. I tolf him I had not intention of behaving any other way. But the truth is truth. I told that was not the issue at hand and that he would never tolerate what he has done to me.
I said my peace with my SIL. I told her of my concerns. My husband is in danger. I know this to be true. I will continue to fervantly pray for him as I know others are praying for him. But only God can deliver him. I am stepping back.
